“No Country for Old Men” and me.

January 10, 2010 by faith

The Coen brothers names appeared on the black screen and I heard voices in the theater murmuring things like, “They took our money, man!” Or “What the hell?”  I sat smiling in the dark loving the end, even though I wasn’t sure of the significance myself.  I’ve found though, that if a piece of art  puzzles the hell out of you, the reason(s) behind the art is usually intentional.  The key in experiencing that intention is to dive in and discover for yourself.  So, of course, I had to read the book.  I had to see if I could find any insight into a story about a psychopathic, cold-blooded killer and a sheriff who was always about ten steps behind him.

Llewelyn Moss seemed like he was the protagonist, but really, I think it was Sheriff Bell. The fact that we, the common man, can relate to Llewelyn made him all the more endearing, but I believe he was a more of a supporting character in the overall theme of the movie/book . I don’t think he was a “good” guy. But he wasn’t a “bad” guy either. He was just a guy who made a split second decision that ultimately cost him his life, and the life of his wife. But I think he did if for himself and Carla Jean. To better their lives.  

Sheriff Bell vs. Chigurh…  Not necessarily good vs. evil.  More like helpless vs. evil.  The times they are a changin’ for the worse.  That’s Bell’s perspective.  Here’s a man who’s been through WWII.  Who’s constantly questioning the worsening state of his country and his only conclusion is that there are no answers.  There is no explanation for someone like Chigurh, who, like a ghost cannot be pinpointed or captured at any given time.  He comes in, blows people’s faces off and then disintegrates onto the horizon.  What’s the reason?  There isn’t a good one.  What’s the point then?  No point.

“On my better days I think that there is somethin’ I don’t know or there is somethin’ that I’m leavin’ out.  But them times are seldom.  I wake up sometimes way in the night and I know as certain as death that there ain’t nothin’ short of the second comin’ of Christ that can slow this train.  I don’t know what is the use of me layin’ awake over it.  But I do.” (Sheriff Bell) 

McCarthy uses Biblical themes throughout his book.  They are bound up in the confusion of a man who finds himself helpless within the plummeting morality of his county.  As evidenced in his concern over the narcotics trade, or Chigurh, or the kids with green hair and bones through their noses (McCarthy 304-305).  He may, as I do,  internalize the following questions:  Is there evil in this world?  Yes.  Does that evil always get caught, tried, locked away?  Nope.  Does that evil multiply and branch out into more evil that manifests itself into the very safe pockets of our society?  Yes.  Is this something new to humanity?  No.  There is indeed nothing new under the sun.

So what is Bell trying to convey?  What is the universal message here?  What is the significance of the dream at the end…?  The dream of his father, who he never mentioned throughout the whole movie or book.  His father who wasn’t even a lawman, but a horse trainer.  Who in the Sheriff’s dream rode ahead of him on horseback on a cold, dark night with “a fire in a horn the way they used to do” (McCarthy 309).  And Bell just rode his horse watching his dad, who was in reality dead.

“And in the dream I knew that he was goin’ on ahead and that he was fixin’ to make a fire somewhere out there in all that dark and all that cold and I knew that whenever I got there he would be there.  And then I woke up” (Sheriff Bell, McCarthy 309).

And we all wake up like that.  Hints of the divine evaporating from our lonely quarters.  And we feel the longing for it to stay.  And are confused by what we feel at all.  And we shake it off because it’s nothing tangible anyway.  Just a glimmer of something hopeful that we can’t seem to keep around long enough to figure out. 

“What was it that he had faith in? …I have to say that the only thing I can think is that there was some sort of promise in his heart. …I would like to be able to make that kind of promise. I think that’s what I would like most of all.” (Sheriff Bell, McCarthy 308).

A promise.  Makes me think of the promise that I found once.  A promise that if I trusted a man who walked this earth 2000 some-odd years ago, he would take me to that place where my longing will be subdued.  Everything else is confusing and sad and frustrating.  So I took his invisible hand and let him in.  On a bad day, all I hang onto is that promise.  On a good day, all the beauties and gifts of life uplift me.  And he does his invisible divine work everywhere, everyday, in the meantime.

The Hangover: The Girl Review

January 1, 2010 by faith

I have watched this movie three times in the past few days.  I know, I’m a little behind!  This thing is flipping hysterical!  I have decided that it is the male version of “Sex and the City”!  My favorite character is Alan.  Hands down!  Alan and his Indiana Jones satchel.  “It holds all my things.”  

I do have to say that when Phil waltzed into Stu’s hotel room wearing all black….  Yeah….that was a little gift!  I had to catch my breath and then rewind several times…!

I love that all of the dysfunctional relationships crashed-and-burned.  I love that the functional relationships prevailed.  I love that Alan was “off” and the guys were still cool to him.  I love that Phil had to be physically restrained when he saw his friend being held hostage.  I love that tigers love pepper, but hate cinnamon.  I love Stu’s missing lateral incisor.  I love the random chicken.  I love Carlos.  I love Mike Tyson singing Phil Collins.  I love that Alan is like a gremlin.  He comes with instructions.  (Lauging, laughing, laughing….rolling off the couch….laughing!!!) 

“His name is Doug too!  Classic mix-up!”  “How DARE you?!  She’s a nice lady!!!”  “HEY, there were Skittles in there!!!!”

And I can’t get… “We’re the three best friends that anybody could ever have!” out of my head!

Few minutes of “Last Days”

November 15, 2009 by faith

Today I watched the end of Gus Van Sant’s  film “Last Days.”  Even though I came in during the last quarter, I couldn’t switch the channel.  The film is artistically rich and captivating.  It’s also emotionally solemn, like having to walk in wet clothes and feeling weighted down and uncomfortable.  I’d like to watch the whole thing.  I remember those fashions.  Those days.  That issue of “Rolling Stone” with Kurt Cobain’s face taking up the entire front cover.  Looking at pictures of him and listening to songs from ”Nevermind”, wondering when the ’snap’ happened.  And why?  Courtney Love’s voice cracking with torture and rage as she read letters and things on Mtv.  1994.  So sad.  

Incidentally, I love that Kim Gordon’s in the film.   

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Assignment

November 8, 2009 by faith

     The big toe on her left foot became caught in the rubber strap of her flip-flop, causing her balance to waffle and the subsequent planting of her heel onto the linoleum. 

     “Dammit,” she muttered, perturbed.    Sighing heavily, she set down the book and newspaper she was carrying and hiked her left leg onto the kitchen counter, foot in the sink.  She knew… she was aware of how ridiculous it was.  Rolling up slightly the sleeves of her robe, she pressed down on the soap dispenser releasing a concentrated jelly glop of liquid soap into her palm.  Instantly she felt relieved. 

     “Who cares?” she said aloud as she turned the faucet on to warm.  “I live alone.”  She glanced up at her reflection in the window above the sink.  Thin whisps of golden curls hung about her face.  Her hair was in a frazzle from sleeping with it up.  Yet, even unkept, she was beautiful.  Her eyes were like the Bermudian ocean, turquoise clear; irises dark as the pristine coral through the water.  Yet there she stood, disheveled.  One leg propped on the counter.  One hand out, palm up.  Washing, at this point, was the only way to extinguish to the licking flames of fear that curled around her heart.  This was always the case. 

     “Whatever!” she exclaimed in defeat as she let the warm water wash over her foot.  She began lathering, making sure to concentrate on the inoculated area.  Lather, rinse – more soap – lather, rinse.  She didn’t think.  She just washed.  Cleaning the exposed section of skin that would otherwise harbor who knows what kind of spore-forming microbes?  “Ugh.”  She shook her shoulders at the thought, remembering the petri dishes.  What grew there.  The potential for any number of human cell destroying organisms to…  A muscular shudder waved down the length of her torso and she felt a slight flex of nausea.

     “Stop, Smith.  Enough,” she said aloud, addressing herself by surname and thus halting the physiological effects of her obsessive thoughts.  Turning off the faucet, she reached for a nearby dish towel.  Anxiety pricked her.   ”Better use paper,” she thought.  “I can throw it out then.”  Drying her foot, she discarded the paper towel, being careful not to touch the edges of the trash bin with her bare skin.  She did have productive things to do today afterall.  “I can’t be held captive all day by this,”  she said.  Picking up the newspaper and book together she climbed the stairs towards her bedroom. 

     When she entered, Sully, her Siamese cat  jumped onto her billowing white comforter.  “Morning, Handsome!” she said jovially as she reached to him for a pet.  Her muscles tensed as she noticed that all four of his paws were wet and incidentally imprinting an unknown liquid onto her comforter.   

     “Sully!  What…?” her voice trailed off as she whipped her head towards the bathroom, where he had entered from.  Without thinking she rushed into her bathroom forced by anxiety.  So forced that the minute her flip-flops hit the wet tile, she lost her balance completely.  As if falling while ice skating, she landed belly first onto the white tile, hitting the side of her face on its unforgiving hard surface.  Instinctively, her mouth opened and a gasp escaped into the splashing thud.  She lay there prostrate for a second, unable to process.  Unable to orient anything. 

     Absent-mindedly blinking and spitting liquid from her mouth, she jerked her head around the room trying to officiate her next plausible move.  And then she saw it.  The culprit.  The silent fiend toilet filled and overflowing a thin layer of water onto the floor noiselessly.  She sucked in air as reality began to connect the synapses in her brain.  She was wet with water from the…..  The synapses began gaining on her.  ”In my mouth…?”  her mind questioned as the convulsions began in her chest and down her arms.  She contorted her face into a horror and opened her mouth to scream, but the darkness took her before she could.

Leek and Potato Soup or Potage Parmentier

October 6, 2009 by faith

One 3-4 qt saucepan
3-4 cups or 1 pound peeled potatoes, sliced or diced
3 cups or 1 pound thinly sliced leeks including the tender green
2 quarts water
1 Tablespoon salt

Simmer the vegetables, water, and salt together, partially covered, for 40-50 min until the veges are tender.
Mash the vegetables in the soup with a potato masher. Correct seasoning. (I added a little pepper)
Set aside uncovered until just before serving, then reheat to the simmer.  (Mastering the Art of French Cooking)

 

I love food.  Wasn’t it Voltaire who said…  Nothing would be more tiresome than eating and drinking if God had not made them a pleasure as well as a necessity.  It was Voltaire.  I just looked it up! 

And what a pleasure it is!  I’ve always thought it really is too bad that gluttony is a sin.  I’d often like to eat myself into oblivion, like Comte de Reynaud from Chocolat.   However, and many howevers…

And soup!  Glorious soup!  I can’t wait for that first prick of cold in the air (and in Texas, sometimes that prick is just an illusion, a mind trick) to open the windows and put on a pot of soup!!!  This season, I’m reeling it in with a simple, yet surprisingly delectable leek and pototo soup!   Gloria in excelsis deo!

The kicker is that, when left to my own devices for dinner, I usually opt for the most menially-tasked entree.  Kraft cheese singles and crackers.  Hummus and rice chips.  Beer.  Tiresome.  Take out is the best by far. 

But.

I have a rather lovely cookbook collection that I usually ignore as I lick the cheesy/chickepea residue from my underworked fingers and shove the evidence into the trash.  It’s not that I don’t like to cook.  It’s that I’m impatient.  And I’m single, so I’m allowed to be impatient and eat paste for dinner if I want to. 

But again, what is it about fresh leeks, fresh potatoes, freshly ground pepper and sea salt, a glass of white wine while waiting?  There is something definitely about it all that is worth the waiting.  Worth the patience.  Like lingering over a good poem, so is savoring a good soup.  The words of a poem travel into your brain, your heart and energize you with emotion.  A good soup takes a differnt physiological path, but energizes you nonetheless, with emotion!  With nourishment, like a lazy Billie Holiday song.  Or a hyped up Gershwin tune; a Woody Allen remark that sends you into a giggle.   

Cooking soup in the Fall.  Hmmm….!

Nora Ephron’s Julia Child played by Meryl Streep is the ping behind all of my eagerness to cook pong!  Art inspires yet again!  And when I get better at it all, I’ll have you over for dinners and parties and things.  And we’ll all give a big lot of whoops and we’ll close our eyes to savor the food that is such a pleasure, that is such a blessing!

 

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The “Twilight” Books

September 26, 2009 by faith

I never thought I’d say this, but I’m on the third book in the “Twilight” series.

I worked in a bookstore for just under ten years and to me the emergence of the “Twilight” books was a semi-annoying phenomenon.  A seeming ”Harry Potter” the second.  Maybe we would begin hosting book release parties for “Twilight” and dress up like….what?  I had no clue what the books were even about.  Nor did I care really.  I just knew that every form of the stereotypical American teenager had been in my store obsessing about these books.  About vampires.  Oh, really they’re about vampires?  Great.  Cash, check or credit?

However.  My “I’m-way-better-than-sci-fi-themed-teenage-novels” attitude subsided after going through a trying relationship situation.  I was looking for something to take me out of my “hopes-were-dashed” melancholy and a coworker and I got into a conversation about these books.  He talked them up so highly that I had to and even wanted to read them.  To enter a whole ‘otherly’ world of not-my-sadness. 

I remember that feeling of getting so lost in a book that the sunlight coming through the windows in your room slowly fades and your find yourself practically reading in shadow.  And the characters feel truly like they are yours.  And the act of putting the book down and snapping instantly back into your own now unfamiliar surroundings kind of depresses you momentarily.  Welcome to “Twilight” by Stephanie Meyer.

Upon reading it, I began to become aware that a lot of my girlfriends have read all four books and are in love, love, love with this Edward Cullen.  A teenage vampire who is just under a century old and completely content with his life.  Until he meets this human girl who he is absolutely compelled by forces greater than his existence to love and protect. 

For almost ninety years I’ve walked among my kind, and yours… all the time thinking I was complete in myself, not realizing what I was seeking. And not finding anything, because you weren’t alive yet.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.304  Twilight Quotes

I was hooked.  Although I did begin to realize that this love story was not helping my post-relational dysfunctional syndrome, but I couldn’t stop reading.  And I joined the Facebook group “Because of Edward Cullen, human boys have lost their charm”!  I must say, it is fun to feel seventeen again!!!

Stephanie Meyer is a brilliant writer.  Her story lines are surprising and captivating and clean.  Her dialogue is good enough to transport you back to your memories of being seventeen.  And her Edward conjures up that longing for Prince Charming, Romeo, Superman and every other angel-faced, star-crossed, dream man who will love you for you and protect you. 

These books are like crack.  And I am definitely a junkie!

Bravo, Stephanie Meyer!  And thank you!